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I am embarking on a new arena for my blogging purposes thanks to a webblog encourager The Simple Wife… so I am just saying. I am just saying that it’s been a crazy week. Started out with recooperating from the stomach virus, having a great week at work, albeit busy. Juggling working full time, three teenagers, homework, being at church (which I mostly love), and trying to just juggle life. Oh wait… there is a husband too! I’m just saying that I would love to go back to last Thursday (before SV) and cherish the feeling of being so loved by my husband. I won’t bore you with the gush, but suffice it to say that I felt loved. He even read a love letter to me that he wrote all by himself. Shocking and gorgeous all wrapped up in one. (I am carrying it with me everywhere I go in my journal) But here is really what I am saying… I am learing that God loves me… (I know, I can hear it in your voice) He really loves me. He loves me when I manage to scrape by without being too cranky with hormonal teenagers. He loves me when I loose my productive drive at work. He loves me when I don’t pay enough attention to my Mom. He loves me when I hate cooking dinner. He loves me when I don’t accomplish everything on my to do list. He loves me just because. He doesn’t love me for what I can do for him. Face it, He doesn’t need me. He loves me just because. During Lent, I told my friend Pam that I was going to really try to just continue to say no. No to everything else but my husband and my children. No to too many things that will distract me from the simple things in life. Loving and serving my family and feeling loved. Sitting quietly and basking in everyday life. I have worked hard for so many years trying to prove to Him that I am in service to Him. During that time, my family suffered (although they would have never said it) in my absence and I lost my time with Him. That is what I am saying. The joy of the Lord is my strength. In order to feel that joy, I have to be with Him, in prayer, in quiet, in His Word. No one else can be in this relationship with him. Just me. I hope your heart is full and I pray that you are craving more of His joy. Face it… this world is pretty whack. I’m choosing to stick with Him. I can’t do it without Him. I pray the same for you.