It’s been amazing this week living in this mommyville. First, let me just say that I LOVE my kiddos and am blessed to be their mom. As college years get closer, I am reminded that our relationship will be changing because they won’t be under our roof all the time… yikes. But this week surely has been a test of emotions for me. Lisa has twice a days in band camp, Becca is working and Griffin has had his wisdom teeth pulled. AND their have been schedule pick ups and uniform fittings and running to the airport with my sister and niece. I love doing it all… but it is really difficult doing it while having a full time job. Thankfully, my husband handled sophomore schedule pick up for me yesterday during Griffin’s surgery time. 🙂 and my sweet sister handled the band uniform fitting with Lisa…. I couldn’t have done most of this summer without my sister helping me. I honestly don’t know what I will do when she leaves to go back to Qatar.. it will be another year before we can see each other again…probably. But! what I have learned this week is this… that although it’s really ALOT of responsibility and it’s not always fun or what I really want to do.. I am serving Him. I am serving those that I love. In being obedient to Him and what is my primary ministry, I am receiving peace and strength. And when I stumble… well He’s there to pick me up.
Abundant peace belongs to those who love Your instruction; nothing makes them stumble.
Praying that you are serving Him and finding joy in the tasks of your Mommyville. 🙂 They grow up and away very quickly.
Externally, things are great. I have a wonderful family (all kids are healthy and relatively happy …they are teenagers…),
am married to a solid guy, have a great job, plenty of money, good friends… you know. Things are great.
Internally, though, it doesn’t feel so great. Dealing with trying to get healthier inside my physical body has opened up the need to become healthier in my spiritual body. A little over a year ago, I stepped aside from a job that sucked up my energy and strength and stepped aside from all volunteer activities to focus on my family. I have recovered from the "lack of joy" stage, but find myself in the status quo stage while yearning for time with Him… complete unabashed worship, quiet and study time with Him. Unfortunately, what my spirit is longing for is not what my life has time for. I am a mom to three teenagers, wife, daughter to an elderly parent that needs/demands attention… and a full time Executive Assistant.
Then, here’s the thing, our small group got our next book called Crazy Love by Francis Chan last night.
I have already read the intro and first chapter this morning… watched the videos and just sat. My friend Cathy said the coolest thing last night.. " All God wants from us is for us to just come to Him. God does the rest. " ONCE again, I am trying to remind myself to just keep going to Him and let Him to the rest and stop wanting to do it for Him. So… I’m going to keep standing and listening. I am going to try to stop doing and wanting things to change and for things to happen.
Thanks Francis, Thanks Small Group, Thanks Cathy, Thanks God. You all Rock.
It’s been several months since my last post…. I so apologize. My blogging for Dummies is collecting dust as life has wizzed by me. My sweet teenagers and new responsibilities at work have kept me hopping. One of my dearest friends and her husband ( I love him too….) just married off their eldest daughter. I was honored to help out in a small way during the weekend. It was a beautiful ceremony and Sarah looked so wonderful… Chandler was quite smashing… But here’s what I got to thinking about…what’s most important is the giving and serving one another. The working along side people who are authentic and kind. The giving without strings… and the generosity of our hearts. That’s what God is glorified by most. Unselfish hearts and willing service. I saw it in so many this weekend that helped. My heart was overwhelmed and honored to work alongside them. So blessings to Sarah and Chandler as they make their way with God on this life road! And blessings to my friends who are amazing.
I am embarking on a new arena for my blogging purposes thanks to a webblog encourager The Simple Wife… so I am just saying. I am just saying that it’s been a crazy week. Started out with recooperating from the stomach virus, having a great week at work, albeit busy. Juggling working full time, three teenagers, homework, being at church (which I mostly love), and trying to just juggle life. Oh wait… there is a husband too! I’m just saying that I would love to go back to last Thursday (before SV) and cherish the feeling of being so loved by my husband. I won’t bore you with the gush, but suffice it to say that I felt loved. He even read a love letter to me that he wrote all by himself. Shocking and gorgeous all wrapped up in one. (I am carrying it with me everywhere I go in my journal) But here is really what I am saying… I am learing that God loves me… (I know, I can hear it in your voice) He really loves me. He loves me when I manage to scrape by without being too cranky with hormonal teenagers. He loves me when I loose my productive drive at work. He loves me when I don’t pay enough attention to my Mom. He loves me when I hate cooking dinner. He loves me when I don’t accomplish everything on my to do list. He loves me just because. He doesn’t love me for what I can do for him. Face it, He doesn’t need me. He loves me just because. During Lent, I told my friend Pam that I was going to really try to just continue to say no. No to everything else but my husband and my children. No to too many things that will distract me from the simple things in life. Loving and serving my family and feeling loved. Sitting quietly and basking in everyday life. I have worked hard for so many years trying to prove to Him that I am in service to Him. During that time, my family suffered (although they would have never said it) in my absence and I lost my time with Him. That is what I am saying. The joy of the Lord is my strength. In order to feel that joy, I have to be with Him, in prayer, in quiet, in His Word. No one else can be in this relationship with him. Just me. I hope your heart is full and I pray that you are craving more of His joy. Face it… this world is pretty whack. I’m choosing to stick with Him. I can’t do it without Him. I pray the same for you.