It is September. Officially. In my heart, I still want it to be summer. But the seasons, they are a changing.
I quickly made mention of sending my oldest off to college yesterday. I feel like I have to quickly mention that I have a son in college or respond to the “how are you doing?” question with speed. Some days I am okay. Most days, I am not. It’s just weird. This child that I raised and spent every waking moment (well, almost) with has now moved to a dorm room and is living on his own. Should I repeat that? Okay, well then moving on…
He was ready. He’s a great kid. He’s overcome so much in his life.. that I dare say at some turns was just a tad daunting… but he’s growing into a funny, creative, compassionate man. He’s a take me or leave me kinda guy. Those turns he had to make from the “normal” path lended itself to some walls going up. Not ideal, but God’s got it all under control. I get him. I understand him. I know God has him in the palm of his hand. I’m counting on that promise. But it’s time for him to grow up, enjoy and learn in college and make his way.
It hasn’t made letting go easy for this mom. The house isn’t the same without him in it. There is less testosterone, less jokes, less mess and less love. There is no man child around on a daily basis anymore. And while I am so stinkin’ excited for him, it just plain stinks. I keep telling myself that millions of mom have done this before me, surely my heart won’t break completely. This Word has been a salve to my soul for weeks…
Place these words on your hearts. Get them deep inside you. Tie them on your hands and foreheads as a reminder. Teach them to your children. Talk about them wherever you are, sitting at home or walking in the street; talk about them from the time you get up in the morning until you fall into bed at night. Inscribe them on the doorposts and gates of your cities so that you’ll live a long time, and your children with you, on the soil that God promised to give your ancestors for as long as there is a sky over the Earth. – Deuteronomy 11:19
I said goodbye to him on Monday after his first visit home. We walked into the house and I apparently had a sad look on my face. My daughter said, “Are you sad? You got that pout y look on your face.” I shook my head yes. She kindly replied, “Well you better get used to saying goodbye cause Iggy (that is what she calls her sister) and I are leaving next year.” This coming from my most compassionate child. My husband told her ever so sternly, “Sissy (cause that is what we call her), my mom has been saying goodbye to me for 28 years now and she still hasn’t gotten used to it. I doubt your mom will be any different.”
My plan is to sit so closely to Him and His Word during this next year, that while the season will become one of the empty nest.. my heart will be firm on top of the only Foundation that will be able to stand up under the heart break. I am looking forward to sharing the funny stories and the amazing lessons of letting go of my chickadees with grace, mercy and expectancy. I hope you stick around!
Along for the celebration today is my friend Myra from My Blessed Life!
Isn’t she gorgeous? I know! But what is even more gorgeous about her is her heart.. no joke. I’ve had the pleasure of meeting her in real life and getting to spend a great night with her and Aubrey from Little Bits of Life . We had a blast eating and window shopping and indulging in the Maggie Moo’s. Squirrel. I can’t help it. It was a great evening and I miss them. ANYWHO!
Myra is joining me in the festivities by giving away a $15.00 gift certificate to her sister Kelly’s boutique on Etsy!
I’ll announce the winner bright and early tomorrow morning! All you have to do is leave me a comment and answer this question: What is God teaching you in your current season about raising your children?
I dare you to make me laugh!